Mum, why don't I have a bra?

I was inspired to post this little story after reading an entry on Mamma Duck's blog!

OK, Caitlin is always hanging around me when I'm getting dressed or going to the toilet etc.

She loved helping me when I had morning sickness by holding my hand and she loves to take the wrapper of my panty liners and pass them to me or just sticking them to my dresser ..... you get the picture?!

I was getting dressed the other morning and I said "Pass me my bra, please love".

She said "Mummy, why don't I have a bra?"
Me "Cause you have a lovely flat chest and don't need a bra"
Caitlin "And you have a bumpy chest and can't wear a vest"

Yes, everything sorted and explained until her teen years!

Or so I thought, until we were in the shops and standing behind a rather large chested lady.

Caitlin "Mummy, that lady needs a bra cause she has a big bumpy chest!"

Wet Wednesday

Wednesday seem to be the worst day of the week for me. Or should I say for Lauren.

Last Wednesday she cried all afternoon until around 7pm. Until her dad came home from golf !!!! I swear, I had just got her settled and he walked in the door. Of course I then had to leave for a meeting with a photographer and I was so stressed by this time.

Even poor Caitlin asked why she was crying so much! I had to say she had a sore tummy and couldn't tell us so all Lauren knew what to do was cry! Don't think Caitlin bought it!

Then tonight, again with Ivan out at his friends dads surprise birthday party, she kicked off again. In true Lauren style. This time I could feel the trapped wind in her tummy and felt so helpless. I even rang Ivan three times and he offered to come home but I wouldn't let him. I felt such a failure as a mum. Thankfully Caitlin went to bed without any hesitation. I think she wanted away from the noise!

I got Lauren settled at around 9pm and she woke again at 10 pm but I've just put her down again, so fingers crossed x

I think I'm ready for a girls night out next week. Better make it Wednesday!

On a side note, I rang on Monday for the results from my blood test and spoke to the Receptionist. My fulate (sp ?) was normal and my B12 was ok but they wanted me to make an appointment to see the Doctor, so how did Wednesday with Dr. Page sound!

I said I had to have my post natal done and could it be done then but she said no and we re-scheduled for Friday at 11.30 am. I can't believe how hard it is to get someone to look after Caitlin as I don't want to bring her with me.

I'm not unduly worried, more anxious to be given the all clear. I did think it was odd to book me in with the only female Doc in the Practice (b4 I mentioned getting the post natal done) but I've got over that, so Friday it is.

So far ~ Not So Bad

Monday was good. I had both girls dressed by 09.30, lol. I bought a little time by promising Caitlin that if she was good and let mummy do some housework, I'd paint with her a little later in the day! I got two washes done and hung out on the line, a general house tidy and the weekly shop all put away before we sat down to paint!

(I did cheat a little with the weekly shop ~ I ordered online and got it delivered, all for an extra £5)

I felt like I had turned a corner with Lauren. When she was awake she didn't cry (as much) and she was content to lie in her basket awake for short periods of time!

Ivan was home from work early and took Caitlin out for a while in the afternoon. I took Lauren to Baby Club to get weighed. Guess what? She was 10lb 2oz at birth and 4 weeks later weighs 11lb 4oz. She's doin good, no?

I then popped into the Doctors and got a blood test done. Results in a week. Hopefully everything will have returned to normal and no more B12 shots or iron tablets. When I was there I got the nurse to look at my wound as I have a tiny 1cm bit that hasn't closed over. She dressed it and told me to come back in a few days. I might need to see the Doctor about getting it closed!

Tuesday was also a good day. Both girls were bathed and dressed in the morning and we were out of the house be 11.30 am. I was very pleased at myself. We went to the local park, then for a walk, then lunch at McDs, back to the park and then home for 2pm.

Both girls then napped while I hovered upstairs, sorted out a bag for the Charity Shop and cleaned the bathroom.

I know every day will not be as productive as these but I know now that I can handle the bad with the good.

Big Day Tomorrow

Ivan returns to work tomorrow.

It will be a real testing time for both of us. Him, because of the nature of his job and the recent loss of his mother and me, quite trivial in comparison but the thought of being left on my own with the two girls is SCARY !!!!!

Lauren has become a little more demanding. She wants to be held a lot. I've also noticed that she is becoming more alert and stays awake longer between feeds. Problem is, she doesn't know what to do during these bouts of wakefulness and this is when she wants held or else she starts fussing and crying. Usually I can handle it.

Caitlin is still Caitlin. Always wants to play with you. Constantly suggesting we go to the park, or bake, or read, or watch a DVD, or play on the swing. She has no concept of the words "Yes love, in a minute". These 5 words usually bring about a little stamping of the feet from Ms. C!

So between the two of them, I'm a little nervous about the coming week!

Following on from Happy Families & Sweet Sisters

My own two sisters and their daughters (one each) are calling today! I don't know if that is a good thing or a bad thing.

I know when the three girls get together (Caitlin & her cousins) it can be a bit hectic! I will feel my stress levels rise but I will be able to cope with it ~ I promise. I plan on bringing all Caitlin's toys out to the garden and along with the swing, play house etc. they should be kept busy!

I'm doing lunch for my sisters and with 3 hours to go I've nothing in or have no clue as to what we are having. I think we'll go with a *light lunch* and I'll force Ivan to light the BBQ later in the evening cause it looks like a nice day!