Just testing out Hello and I'm using this recent snap of Caitlin, she will just love me when she gets older!
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
Saturday, September 24, 2005
Anti Social Behaviour
I have to come clean and admit that since having Lauren I’ve developed a weird social phobia.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me but I’m afraid to make contact with anyone.
I’m afraid to make arrangements to go out for the night, yet I’d love a girl’s night out and Ivan is only too happy to babysit.
I think I’m afraid to find out that I don’t have anything to contribute to the conversation anymore, other than talk of poo, nappies & bottles! I’m afraid that I’ll bore people.
To be honest, it is starting to get me down and in an effort to overcome this new phobia I got in touch with Lynn (a friend I met through work and lives in the next street) and invited her round for a Coffee & Craft morning.
I’m glad I did! We had coffee and chatted. Didn’t do much crafting but Lynn is interested in giving it a go and agrees we should try to get together every now and again to do this. I’m thinking of seeing if she wants to go to the cinema next week or for a bite to eat. Just plucking up the courage to ask.
Other than that, I’m avoiding everyone.
I felt weird when I went into work for a visit the other week but again, afterwards, I’m glad I did. Only thing is I’ve been invited to a lunch on Monday to launch the arrival of our new ship. VIP’s, customers, Directors etc. will all be there and I know I’ll want to blend into the background. This is so not like me.
I’ve also noticed that I’m taking a back seat on a couple of the discussion boards I belong to. I hardly post anything and stick to the same few areas of interest out of safety. I hardly ever comment on others peoples posts and I hate to not offer my support so again this is not like me. I’ve even held of posting on this blog cause I think I’ve nothing to say.
I feel like I’m blending into the background of what was my life.
I feel like I’m disappearing.
Someone shake me.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me but I’m afraid to make contact with anyone.
I’m afraid to make arrangements to go out for the night, yet I’d love a girl’s night out and Ivan is only too happy to babysit.
I think I’m afraid to find out that I don’t have anything to contribute to the conversation anymore, other than talk of poo, nappies & bottles! I’m afraid that I’ll bore people.
To be honest, it is starting to get me down and in an effort to overcome this new phobia I got in touch with Lynn (a friend I met through work and lives in the next street) and invited her round for a Coffee & Craft morning.
I’m glad I did! We had coffee and chatted. Didn’t do much crafting but Lynn is interested in giving it a go and agrees we should try to get together every now and again to do this. I’m thinking of seeing if she wants to go to the cinema next week or for a bite to eat. Just plucking up the courage to ask.
Other than that, I’m avoiding everyone.
I felt weird when I went into work for a visit the other week but again, afterwards, I’m glad I did. Only thing is I’ve been invited to a lunch on Monday to launch the arrival of our new ship. VIP’s, customers, Directors etc. will all be there and I know I’ll want to blend into the background. This is so not like me.
I’ve also noticed that I’m taking a back seat on a couple of the discussion boards I belong to. I hardly post anything and stick to the same few areas of interest out of safety. I hardly ever comment on others peoples posts and I hate to not offer my support so again this is not like me. I’ve even held of posting on this blog cause I think I’ve nothing to say.
I feel like I’m blending into the background of what was my life.
I feel like I’m disappearing.
Someone shake me.
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
Monday, September 12, 2005
Our Trip to the Emergency Room
Lauren got her 1st jabs on Thursday afternoon was really unsettled for a few days afterwards, which I expected. She wanted cuddled, didn't like to be set down. She wasn't feeding well and cried for 4 hours solid on Friday night.
Then on Saturday I noticed a rash, mostly on her front upper torso, back & neck. I did the glass test and it went away, so I was thinking just a reaction to the shots rather than something like meningitis.
She didn't run a temp and in my heart I knew it wasn't anything too sinister. I spoke to my sister, who is a nurse and she told me what to look out for but overall Lauren was in good spirits.
Well, when we got up this morning the rash had spread all over her body, face & head and looked very angry. Even her little eyes were swollen, so I ended up taking her to hospital.
We were there for 4+ hours. They thought she looked very pale and check her bloods but this and every other test the ran showed nothing.
They think the rash is as a result of a viral infection (unrelated to the jabs) and we were able to go home after the urine test came back clear. I've just to keep an eye on her and her temp.
As I say, in herself she is fine, still laughing & talking away. Eating less but sleeping more.
I hope the little mite feels better tomorrow.
Then on Saturday I noticed a rash, mostly on her front upper torso, back & neck. I did the glass test and it went away, so I was thinking just a reaction to the shots rather than something like meningitis.
She didn't run a temp and in my heart I knew it wasn't anything too sinister. I spoke to my sister, who is a nurse and she told me what to look out for but overall Lauren was in good spirits.
Well, when we got up this morning the rash had spread all over her body, face & head and looked very angry. Even her little eyes were swollen, so I ended up taking her to hospital.
We were there for 4+ hours. They thought she looked very pale and check her bloods but this and every other test the ran showed nothing.
They think the rash is as a result of a viral infection (unrelated to the jabs) and we were able to go home after the urine test came back clear. I've just to keep an eye on her and her temp.
As I say, in herself she is fine, still laughing & talking away. Eating less but sleeping more.
I hope the little mite feels better tomorrow.
Saturday, September 10, 2005
Role Play
Just two quickies!
Caitlin has started to role play more and more now. She even does the voices for her dolls and teddies when playing..
The other day she was playing a school in her bedroom. Ivan and I could hear a lot of shouting, thing like “You are very naughty” “Don’t do that!”
I had to sneak upstairs to take a peak and she had a lot of dolls sitting on her pillow while she was sitting on the bed reading them a story. There was a small pile of teddies on the floor and I asked if they fell off the bed to which Caitlin replied “No mummy, they were bold and they are in the naughty corner” Then she said to the pile on the floor “There, are you sorry now!”
Also, in the car the other day she had a Barbie like doll and was talking away to it. Then I heard “Be good or I will tie you up!”. I looked round and she was threatening Barbie with her pink pearl necklace. I asked her what she was doing and she said “Like my wrist strap when I run away!”.
Oh my. I’ve created a monster.
It’s not like I’m constantly reprimanding her but now I’m going to have to watch what I say. Funny thing is, I always said to Ivan that Caitlin is the type of child that will go into school and tell her teacher everything! She remembers everything.
Caitlin has started to role play more and more now. She even does the voices for her dolls and teddies when playing..
The other day she was playing a school in her bedroom. Ivan and I could hear a lot of shouting, thing like “You are very naughty” “Don’t do that!”
I had to sneak upstairs to take a peak and she had a lot of dolls sitting on her pillow while she was sitting on the bed reading them a story. There was a small pile of teddies on the floor and I asked if they fell off the bed to which Caitlin replied “No mummy, they were bold and they are in the naughty corner” Then she said to the pile on the floor “There, are you sorry now!”
Also, in the car the other day she had a Barbie like doll and was talking away to it. Then I heard “Be good or I will tie you up!”. I looked round and she was threatening Barbie with her pink pearl necklace. I asked her what she was doing and she said “Like my wrist strap when I run away!”.
Oh my. I’ve created a monster.
It’s not like I’m constantly reprimanding her but now I’m going to have to watch what I say. Funny thing is, I always said to Ivan that Caitlin is the type of child that will go into school and tell her teacher everything! She remembers everything.
Compare and Contrast
Whilst feeding Lauren the other night I got to thinking of the differences between her and Caitlin.
At 8 weeks old ::
Lauren is now 12lb 10oz
Caitlin was 13lb 4.5oz
Lauren is now 60cm long
Caitlin was 60cm long
Lauren takes approx 5-6oz every 4 hours
Caitlin took 6-7oz every 3-4 hours
Caitlin drank every bottle like it was her last! She gulped her milk down in record time. Lauren likes to take her time, savour the moment and in turn give whoever is feeding her a dead arm! We now know that if you are about to feed Lauren, you should go to the toilet, grab the TV remote control, puff up the cushions and settle in for the long haul. Both girls hung/hang (with a grip of death) onto a finger of the hand that is holding the bottle.
Lauren reminds me of a Little Turtle. After a feed, when I have her up on my shoulder to get winded, she tucks both hands in under her chin and pushes her head right back. It’s so darn cute to look down at. I just love her little pursed lips!
Caitlin always reminded us of a Fat Frog! After a feed, when we had her up on the shoulder to get winded, she would tuck both arms into her chest and pulled her knees up so she was just lying on top of you. Blind faith kept her there ~ blind faith that you would cradle and protect her! To this day she still does it, say, if she has fallen asleep in the car and you’ve to carry her into the house. Only problem now is her size verses my size and point of balance! I have to walk leaning backwards to compensate.
Although Lauren and Caitlin look very much alike, I feel Lauren looks a lot like her dad, while Caitlin looks a lot like me.
At 8 weeks old ::
Lauren is now 12lb 10oz
Caitlin was 13lb 4.5oz
Lauren is now 60cm long
Caitlin was 60cm long
Lauren takes approx 5-6oz every 4 hours
Caitlin took 6-7oz every 3-4 hours
Caitlin drank every bottle like it was her last! She gulped her milk down in record time. Lauren likes to take her time, savour the moment and in turn give whoever is feeding her a dead arm! We now know that if you are about to feed Lauren, you should go to the toilet, grab the TV remote control, puff up the cushions and settle in for the long haul. Both girls hung/hang (with a grip of death) onto a finger of the hand that is holding the bottle.
Lauren reminds me of a Little Turtle. After a feed, when I have her up on my shoulder to get winded, she tucks both hands in under her chin and pushes her head right back. It’s so darn cute to look down at. I just love her little pursed lips!
Caitlin always reminded us of a Fat Frog! After a feed, when we had her up on the shoulder to get winded, she would tuck both arms into her chest and pulled her knees up so she was just lying on top of you. Blind faith kept her there ~ blind faith that you would cradle and protect her! To this day she still does it, say, if she has fallen asleep in the car and you’ve to carry her into the house. Only problem now is her size verses my size and point of balance! I have to walk leaning backwards to compensate.
Although Lauren and Caitlin look very much alike, I feel Lauren looks a lot like her dad, while Caitlin looks a lot like me.
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
Monday, September 05, 2005
Eternal Optimist
Caitlin’s behaviour goes from one extreme to the other at the minute and I don‘t know if it‘s related to her age or to Lauren!
One day she can be loving, funny, obedient and inquisitive. The next day she will be wilful, cheeky, disobedient ~ almost driving me to tears.
I’m trying all the tips and tricks recommended on programmes such as Supernanny, Nanny 911 and Little Angels. We do the Time Out or the Naughty Stair (or bedroom if Lauren is sleeping!). She says sorry afterwards and when asked knows what exactly she did wrong, so she understands.
I have to be clever about what I threaten her with. What I mean is, if I say “Stop doing that. Do you want to go to your room?” She answers “Yes”. Or, if I say “Stop trying to break that toy or I’ll give it to the boys & girls who don’t have any toys” She replies “OK. Here”
Out and about in town the other day she got the better of me. She kept running off in shops. Wouldn’t listen. Wouldn’t come back when I asked or even stop when I called her name. So what did I do? I frog-marched her straight to Mothercare and bought a wrist strap! I’ve explained that when she is naughty or runs away - it goes on! When she is good - she can walk beside the pram. We’ll see how this works!!!!
I don’t want to start smacking but sometimes I feel it might be the only way to get through to her. I know this is not true and I know it is just an immediate reaction to whatever she has done verses my rising stress levels!
I’m hoping and praying that Playgroup will be the miracle answer to my silent prayers!
One day she can be loving, funny, obedient and inquisitive. The next day she will be wilful, cheeky, disobedient ~ almost driving me to tears.
I’m trying all the tips and tricks recommended on programmes such as Supernanny, Nanny 911 and Little Angels. We do the Time Out or the Naughty Stair (or bedroom if Lauren is sleeping!). She says sorry afterwards and when asked knows what exactly she did wrong, so she understands.
I have to be clever about what I threaten her with. What I mean is, if I say “Stop doing that. Do you want to go to your room?” She answers “Yes”. Or, if I say “Stop trying to break that toy or I’ll give it to the boys & girls who don’t have any toys” She replies “OK. Here”
Out and about in town the other day she got the better of me. She kept running off in shops. Wouldn’t listen. Wouldn’t come back when I asked or even stop when I called her name. So what did I do? I frog-marched her straight to Mothercare and bought a wrist strap! I’ve explained that when she is naughty or runs away - it goes on! When she is good - she can walk beside the pram. We’ll see how this works!!!!
I don’t want to start smacking but sometimes I feel it might be the only way to get through to her. I know this is not true and I know it is just an immediate reaction to whatever she has done verses my rising stress levels!
I’m hoping and praying that Playgroup will be the miracle answer to my silent prayers!
Thursday, September 01, 2005
In Summary
Got the all clear at the doctors but also got another course of antibiotics too! My wound has still not healed completely. I have a tiny little whole right in the middle of the scar line, strange but I’ve grown to like it! I’ve to go and get it dressed every couple of days. I’ve been twice! I just don’t get the time and the thought of going to the surgery with the 2 girls is sometimes frightening. However, that said, I will go tomorrow morning when I am one girl short, lol.
Lauren was up to 11 lb 12.5 oz at last weeks weigh in. She gets her 8 week baby check and first round of shots next Thursday. Not looking forward to that. Would rather Ivan took her but at the same time want to be there for her!
Caitlin started playgroup today. Just one hour a day for the first week, then 3 hours every morning after that. She needs it and I need it. I know she will love it. All she talks about is going to school and her teacher and her “Bends” (friends).
Ivan is doing a lot better. He has good days and bad days. He has returned to work and I think that is helping him a little.
The computer crashed last week and we lost a lot of photos we had not yet got round to backing up. So take heed! I was so disappointed at losing Laurens pictures. I have a few I’d put online but now I’m taking lots more to make up for it.
Talking photos, I finally got round to collecting our official wedding photos last night! Yep, it’s our 1st anniversary on Sunday and I just got the photos back. Still have to get them into an album but hopefully we’ll have that done before our 2nd anniversary.
We’ve nothing planned yet for Sunday. Bad news is Ivan is on call this week and can‘t get cover for the weekend. Good news is my mum is insisting on taking both girls on Saturday evening overnight! I’m trying to organise something special for Saturday, so I’ll keep you informed!
Lauren was up to 11 lb 12.5 oz at last weeks weigh in. She gets her 8 week baby check and first round of shots next Thursday. Not looking forward to that. Would rather Ivan took her but at the same time want to be there for her!
Caitlin started playgroup today. Just one hour a day for the first week, then 3 hours every morning after that. She needs it and I need it. I know she will love it. All she talks about is going to school and her teacher and her “Bends” (friends).
Ivan is doing a lot better. He has good days and bad days. He has returned to work and I think that is helping him a little.
The computer crashed last week and we lost a lot of photos we had not yet got round to backing up. So take heed! I was so disappointed at losing Laurens pictures. I have a few I’d put online but now I’m taking lots more to make up for it.
Talking photos, I finally got round to collecting our official wedding photos last night! Yep, it’s our 1st anniversary on Sunday and I just got the photos back. Still have to get them into an album but hopefully we’ll have that done before our 2nd anniversary.
We’ve nothing planned yet for Sunday. Bad news is Ivan is on call this week and can‘t get cover for the weekend. Good news is my mum is insisting on taking both girls on Saturday evening overnight! I’m trying to organise something special for Saturday, so I’ll keep you informed!
Thursday, August 18, 2005
Mum, why don't I have a bra?
I was inspired to post this little story after reading an entry on Mamma Duck's blog!
OK, Caitlin is always hanging around me when I'm getting dressed or going to the toilet etc.
She loved helping me when I had morning sickness by holding my hand and she loves to take the wrapper of my panty liners and pass them to me or just sticking them to my dresser ..... you get the picture?!
I was getting dressed the other morning and I said "Pass me my bra, please love".
She said "Mummy, why don't I have a bra?"
Me "Cause you have a lovely flat chest and don't need a bra"
Caitlin "And you have a bumpy chest and can't wear a vest"
Yes, everything sorted and explained until her teen years!
Or so I thought, until we were in the shops and standing behind a rather large chested lady.
Caitlin "Mummy, that lady needs a bra cause she has a big bumpy chest!"
OK, Caitlin is always hanging around me when I'm getting dressed or going to the toilet etc.
She loved helping me when I had morning sickness by holding my hand and she loves to take the wrapper of my panty liners and pass them to me or just sticking them to my dresser ..... you get the picture?!
I was getting dressed the other morning and I said "Pass me my bra, please love".
She said "Mummy, why don't I have a bra?"
Me "Cause you have a lovely flat chest and don't need a bra"
Caitlin "And you have a bumpy chest and can't wear a vest"
Yes, everything sorted and explained until her teen years!
Or so I thought, until we were in the shops and standing behind a rather large chested lady.
Caitlin "Mummy, that lady needs a bra cause she has a big bumpy chest!"
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
Wet Wednesday
Wednesday seem to be the worst day of the week for me. Or should I say for Lauren.
Last Wednesday she cried all afternoon until around 7pm. Until her dad came home from golf !!!! I swear, I had just got her settled and he walked in the door. Of course I then had to leave for a meeting with a photographer and I was so stressed by this time.
Even poor Caitlin asked why she was crying so much! I had to say she had a sore tummy and couldn't tell us so all Lauren knew what to do was cry! Don't think Caitlin bought it!
Then tonight, again with Ivan out at his friends dads surprise birthday party, she kicked off again. In true Lauren style. This time I could feel the trapped wind in her tummy and felt so helpless. I even rang Ivan three times and he offered to come home but I wouldn't let him. I felt such a failure as a mum. Thankfully Caitlin went to bed without any hesitation. I think she wanted away from the noise!
I got Lauren settled at around 9pm and she woke again at 10 pm but I've just put her down again, so fingers crossed x
I think I'm ready for a girls night out next week. Better make it Wednesday!
On a side note, I rang on Monday for the results from my blood test and spoke to the Receptionist. My fulate (sp ?) was normal and my B12 was ok but they wanted me to make an appointment to see the Doctor, so how did Wednesday with Dr. Page sound!
I said I had to have my post natal done and could it be done then but she said no and we re-scheduled for Friday at 11.30 am. I can't believe how hard it is to get someone to look after Caitlin as I don't want to bring her with me.
I'm not unduly worried, more anxious to be given the all clear. I did think it was odd to book me in with the only female Doc in the Practice (b4 I mentioned getting the post natal done) but I've got over that, so Friday it is.
Last Wednesday she cried all afternoon until around 7pm. Until her dad came home from golf !!!! I swear, I had just got her settled and he walked in the door. Of course I then had to leave for a meeting with a photographer and I was so stressed by this time.
Even poor Caitlin asked why she was crying so much! I had to say she had a sore tummy and couldn't tell us so all Lauren knew what to do was cry! Don't think Caitlin bought it!
Then tonight, again with Ivan out at his friends dads surprise birthday party, she kicked off again. In true Lauren style. This time I could feel the trapped wind in her tummy and felt so helpless. I even rang Ivan three times and he offered to come home but I wouldn't let him. I felt such a failure as a mum. Thankfully Caitlin went to bed without any hesitation. I think she wanted away from the noise!
I got Lauren settled at around 9pm and she woke again at 10 pm but I've just put her down again, so fingers crossed x
I think I'm ready for a girls night out next week. Better make it Wednesday!
On a side note, I rang on Monday for the results from my blood test and spoke to the Receptionist. My fulate (sp ?) was normal and my B12 was ok but they wanted me to make an appointment to see the Doctor, so how did Wednesday with Dr. Page sound!
I said I had to have my post natal done and could it be done then but she said no and we re-scheduled for Friday at 11.30 am. I can't believe how hard it is to get someone to look after Caitlin as I don't want to bring her with me.
I'm not unduly worried, more anxious to be given the all clear. I did think it was odd to book me in with the only female Doc in the Practice (b4 I mentioned getting the post natal done) but I've got over that, so Friday it is.
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
So far ~ Not So Bad
Monday was good. I had both girls dressed by 09.30, lol. I bought a little time by promising Caitlin that if she was good and let mummy do some housework, I'd paint with her a little later in the day! I got two washes done and hung out on the line, a general house tidy and the weekly shop all put away before we sat down to paint!
(I did cheat a little with the weekly shop ~ I ordered online and got it delivered, all for an extra £5)
I felt like I had turned a corner with Lauren. When she was awake she didn't cry (as much) and she was content to lie in her basket awake for short periods of time!
Ivan was home from work early and took Caitlin out for a while in the afternoon. I took Lauren to Baby Club to get weighed. Guess what? She was 10lb 2oz at birth and 4 weeks later weighs 11lb 4oz. She's doin good, no?
I then popped into the Doctors and got a blood test done. Results in a week. Hopefully everything will have returned to normal and no more B12 shots or iron tablets. When I was there I got the nurse to look at my wound as I have a tiny 1cm bit that hasn't closed over. She dressed it and told me to come back in a few days. I might need to see the Doctor about getting it closed!
Tuesday was also a good day. Both girls were bathed and dressed in the morning and we were out of the house be 11.30 am. I was very pleased at myself. We went to the local park, then for a walk, then lunch at McDs, back to the park and then home for 2pm.
Both girls then napped while I hovered upstairs, sorted out a bag for the Charity Shop and cleaned the bathroom.
I know every day will not be as productive as these but I know now that I can handle the bad with the good.
(I did cheat a little with the weekly shop ~ I ordered online and got it delivered, all for an extra £5)
I felt like I had turned a corner with Lauren. When she was awake she didn't cry (as much) and she was content to lie in her basket awake for short periods of time!
Ivan was home from work early and took Caitlin out for a while in the afternoon. I took Lauren to Baby Club to get weighed. Guess what? She was 10lb 2oz at birth and 4 weeks later weighs 11lb 4oz. She's doin good, no?
I then popped into the Doctors and got a blood test done. Results in a week. Hopefully everything will have returned to normal and no more B12 shots or iron tablets. When I was there I got the nurse to look at my wound as I have a tiny 1cm bit that hasn't closed over. She dressed it and told me to come back in a few days. I might need to see the Doctor about getting it closed!
Tuesday was also a good day. Both girls were bathed and dressed in the morning and we were out of the house be 11.30 am. I was very pleased at myself. We went to the local park, then for a walk, then lunch at McDs, back to the park and then home for 2pm.
Both girls then napped while I hovered upstairs, sorted out a bag for the Charity Shop and cleaned the bathroom.
I know every day will not be as productive as these but I know now that I can handle the bad with the good.
Sunday, August 07, 2005
Big Day Tomorrow
Ivan returns to work tomorrow.
It will be a real testing time for both of us. Him, because of the nature of his job and the recent loss of his mother and me, quite trivial in comparison but the thought of being left on my own with the two girls is SCARY !!!!!
It will be a real testing time for both of us. Him, because of the nature of his job and the recent loss of his mother and me, quite trivial in comparison but the thought of being left on my own with the two girls is SCARY !!!!!
Lauren has become a little more demanding. She wants to be held a lot. I've also noticed that she is becoming more alert and stays awake longer between feeds. Problem is, she doesn't know what to do during these bouts of wakefulness and this is when she wants held or else she starts fussing and crying. Usually I can handle it.
Caitlin is still Caitlin. Always wants to play with you. Constantly suggesting we go to the park, or bake, or read, or watch a DVD, or play on the swing. She has no concept of the words "Yes love, in a minute". These 5 words usually bring about a little stamping of the feet from Ms. C!
So between the two of them, I'm a little nervous about the coming week!
Monday, August 01, 2005
Following on from Happy Families & Sweet Sisters
My own two sisters and their daughters (one each) are calling today! I don't know if that is a good thing or a bad thing.
I know when the three girls get together (Caitlin & her cousins) it can be a bit hectic! I will feel my stress levels rise but I will be able to cope with it ~ I promise. I plan on bringing all Caitlin's toys out to the garden and along with the swing, play house etc. they should be kept busy!
I'm doing lunch for my sisters and with 3 hours to go I've nothing in or have no clue as to what we are having. I think we'll go with a *light lunch* and I'll force Ivan to light the BBQ later in the evening cause it looks like a nice day!
I know when the three girls get together (Caitlin & her cousins) it can be a bit hectic! I will feel my stress levels rise but I will be able to cope with it ~ I promise. I plan on bringing all Caitlin's toys out to the garden and along with the swing, play house etc. they should be kept busy!
I'm doing lunch for my sisters and with 3 hours to go I've nothing in or have no clue as to what we are having. I think we'll go with a *light lunch* and I'll force Ivan to light the BBQ later in the evening cause it looks like a nice day!
Sunday, July 31, 2005
MIA
I took a self-imposed couple of weeks off from my blog, as I'm sure you can guess that things were a little crazy round here.
Things are a little better at home. Ivan has finished clearing his mums house and will hand the keys back tomorrow. He found this task really hard and in turn was not always pleasant to be around. The atmosphere was very strained during the week and I found myself biting back at him when I didn't mean to.
He has also visited the grave a few times, which I think is a good thing. He said he found it peaceful, so I'm glad he has somewhere to go when he is finding it hard.
I had a bit of a dip during the week and was heading for an emotional breakdown but I came through it ok. I'm tired from doing everything about the house and doing things I shouldn't be doing only two weeks post-op. I've got an infection in my uterus and a slight infection in the wound. I'm on antibiotics and the MW will be ringing me again in the morning to see how I am.
As well at the 3 antibiotics per day, I also take 2 pain killers, 2 iron tablets and 1 folic acid tablet. Shake me and I will rattle!
I may have got my last B12 injection last Wednesday. I've to go for a blood sample this Wednesday. If the results come back with my levels all returning to normal, then I can stop the iron & folic acid and no more B12 shots!
Lauren is doing great. She is brilliant at the eating and sleeping thing that babies do a lot of! She had a 4oz bottle at about 2030 hrs last night and didn't wake until 0515 hrs this morning! And again today, she had 5oz at 0830 hrs and slept until 1415 hrs! So I can't really complain.
I take each day as it comes and don't get too stressed about having a routine. She was a little colicky to start with but we have now got stuff that I put into her bottle and it appears to be helping. She is very hard to get wind from! Doesn't take that from her daddy. She is also a very slow feeder. I was use to Caitlin guzzling down her bottles like she was not getting another one but Lauren likes to take her time, maybe have a little *shut eye* after an ounce or two and then finish in her own time!
I think the hardest part so far is planning your day or arranging to go out ~ so now I don't! Plan that is. At first, I didn't go out. Didn't want to, didn't need to. Then I tried to plan what time I was leaving the house etc. and when that time came and went, I felt a failure. I felt stressed. So, now I don't plan. We do get out nearly every day, even if it is just a walk to the shop but we just go out when we are all ready. When ever that may be!
Caitlin is doing good. Sometimes it is hard with her around Lauren but I keep reminding myself that she is learning and doesn't mean to keep waking Lauren up!
Last week I felt like I was always shouting at her to be quiet, then she'd go and put her high heels on and clip clop across the wooden floor to show me just how loud she could be!
This week we were having problems with her running away from me when ever we went out anywhere. I'm seriously thinking about getting the wrist reigns out and attaching her to the pram! That will teach her.
But that said, that's what it is all about. We are now a family of four and I'm learning, Ivan is learning and Caitlin is learning.
Lauren, well she is just lying there and being too cute and too cool!
Things are a little better at home. Ivan has finished clearing his mums house and will hand the keys back tomorrow. He found this task really hard and in turn was not always pleasant to be around. The atmosphere was very strained during the week and I found myself biting back at him when I didn't mean to.
He has also visited the grave a few times, which I think is a good thing. He said he found it peaceful, so I'm glad he has somewhere to go when he is finding it hard.
I had a bit of a dip during the week and was heading for an emotional breakdown but I came through it ok. I'm tired from doing everything about the house and doing things I shouldn't be doing only two weeks post-op. I've got an infection in my uterus and a slight infection in the wound. I'm on antibiotics and the MW will be ringing me again in the morning to see how I am.
As well at the 3 antibiotics per day, I also take 2 pain killers, 2 iron tablets and 1 folic acid tablet. Shake me and I will rattle!
I may have got my last B12 injection last Wednesday. I've to go for a blood sample this Wednesday. If the results come back with my levels all returning to normal, then I can stop the iron & folic acid and no more B12 shots!
Lauren is doing great. She is brilliant at the eating and sleeping thing that babies do a lot of! She had a 4oz bottle at about 2030 hrs last night and didn't wake until 0515 hrs this morning! And again today, she had 5oz at 0830 hrs and slept until 1415 hrs! So I can't really complain.
I take each day as it comes and don't get too stressed about having a routine. She was a little colicky to start with but we have now got stuff that I put into her bottle and it appears to be helping. She is very hard to get wind from! Doesn't take that from her daddy. She is also a very slow feeder. I was use to Caitlin guzzling down her bottles like she was not getting another one but Lauren likes to take her time, maybe have a little *shut eye* after an ounce or two and then finish in her own time!
I think the hardest part so far is planning your day or arranging to go out ~ so now I don't! Plan that is. At first, I didn't go out. Didn't want to, didn't need to. Then I tried to plan what time I was leaving the house etc. and when that time came and went, I felt a failure. I felt stressed. So, now I don't plan. We do get out nearly every day, even if it is just a walk to the shop but we just go out when we are all ready. When ever that may be!
Caitlin is doing good. Sometimes it is hard with her around Lauren but I keep reminding myself that she is learning and doesn't mean to keep waking Lauren up!
Last week I felt like I was always shouting at her to be quiet, then she'd go and put her high heels on and clip clop across the wooden floor to show me just how loud she could be!
This week we were having problems with her running away from me when ever we went out anywhere. I'm seriously thinking about getting the wrist reigns out and attaching her to the pram! That will teach her.
But that said, that's what it is all about. We are now a family of four and I'm learning, Ivan is learning and Caitlin is learning.
Lauren, well she is just lying there and being too cute and too cool!
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