AWOL ~ but I'm back!

I took a break from the internet before Christmas because of some shit happening IRL. A so-called friends gossiping left me hurt, confused and angry but I'm over it and that's all the time I'm allowing it on this page!

Well, as you may have noticed, I'm 15 weeks pg today. I can't believe it. It seems to have flew by so quickly. I've left the sickness behind and for the most part I'm back to normal. I get tired sometimes and still can be a bit moody but, heh, that's normal!

I had my first antenatal appointment on 06 January. Talk about comprehensive!! First off we had the scan and like everyone else feels, I was just so relieved to see the little heartbeat. Makes everything seem so real. The pictures aren't that clear cause the printer was broke but I'm happy with what I saw on screen.

Next I saw a Midwife who took all my details and entered them into the computer. She took blood (enough for several tests) and did my bp, which was fine. Then we went to see a Parentcraft Midwife. She discussed the options regarding the classes and give me a folder full of leaflets and books regarding your health & wellbeing during pg.

Lastly, I had a great appointment with a Consultant. She went over Caitlin's delivery notes with a fine toothcomb and noted everything that went wrong last time. We discussed this in-depth and as a result I was doing “Shared Care” (Hospital and GP visits) but now it's Modified Shared Care and I’ve to visit the hospital every two weeks in my last trimester. Fine by me. I’d go everyday as long as the baby is ok.

I will be monitored more closely this time round as the chances of having a *big* baby again are very high and they don't know how this was overlooked last time. There is also a high chance I'll have an early c-section and will bleed out again but now they know what to expect they will take action to prevent it. They are arranging for me to see an Anaesthetist to discuss if I did in fact have a reaction to the epidural and what this will mean next time round. I feel sooooooo reassuared & happy for the first time in a long time.

I think I was worried about the appointment and this was part of the reason I felt so down over Christmas. I'm delighted to be pg and can't wait for another baby but I was really worried about the birth. I didn't know if I could go through that part again after what happened last time But now after speaking to the Consultant, I'm happy and relaxed. She said she would prepare for the worst and hope for the best!

It's hard to believe that my little bubba can grasp, squint, frown, grimace and even suck his/her thumb! I've to go for the Triple Test on the 31st January and will hopefully get another scan then.